i cry everytime i listen to this song
watching the video is worse

Just a dream - Carrie Underwood

It was two weeks after the day she turned eighteen
All dressed in white
Going to the church that night
She had his box of letters in the passenger seat
Sixpence in a shoe, something borrowed, something blue
And when the church doors opened up wide
She put her veil downTrying to hide the tears
Oh she just couldn't believe it
She heard trumpets from the military band
And the flowers fell out of her hand

Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

The preacher man said let us bow our heads and pray
Lord please lift his soul, and heal this hurt
Then the congregation all stood up and sang the saddest song that she ever heard
Then they handed her a folded up flag
And she held on to all she had left of him
Oh, and what could have been
And then the guns rang one last shot
And it felt like a bullet in her heart

Baby why'd you leave meWhy'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

its snowing
snowing
snowing

in zurich
1st time seeing snow =)

Bored

4th night in Abu Dhabi. Damm bored. Internet damm laggg. No shows on TV. Just got news bei have to work OT so wont be able to see him on my off days, which spells WTF and sian. Changed flight with another stewardess so that i can at least have 1 full day with bei when he's off, but not sure whether it will be approved anot cos she is biz class trained while im not yet. Hate pending status. Oh ya, did i mention im off probation alr? No more P plate. Which doesnt make a diff to me cos my name is always at the bottom which shows im still the most junior-est. Ppl keep calling me ah girl, and i must say i dont really like it.

But on a happy note, its cfm-ed that bei and i will be going Tokyo next month, woohoo!! so damm excited abt it can. Bei's excited too, keep doing research on where to go and stuffs. Went to Kino a week ago to buy map and guide books and all haha. Its like autumm season over there (ard 15 degrees) and so we have been keeping a lookout for warmer clothings, and buying it. It is shitty cos we were saying like we gonna save money for this trip. Will be taking JAL. Didnt use my free tic cos bei's tic alone cost 900+, while JAL tics for 2 cost ard 1000. Although bei's SIA tic is still cheaper but the main reason why we didnt get it is cos i have to wait for my free ticket to be approved, which means pending status till 1 month b4 the departure date and by then it will be too late and too rush. Im gonna spend my 2 (hopefully 3) of days working out the itinery and the metro lines. You know how complicated it is. Talking abt it is enough to get me all hyped up. The dates are 15th to 20th Nov. !!!!!!!!!

I got 2 compliment letters from pax. Which shows i have been working hard and working well. I would work hard for more if it helps to accelerate the depreciation of the bond. But it doesnt. I dont give a damn unless you're willing to help me pay my bond. Bei's job sucks too, too tiring for the mind and body. He got another interview this wed so hope he will get it. Its his dream job afterall. Gonna pass my all my luck to him.

ok, enough of whining and ranting. I think i should go read up this book, "How to love your life and your job". Saw it at Kino. 1 more night then im back to Sg and next trip would be manchester.

Had a great time with bei at the Siloso Beach Resort.
Wish that time had not passed that fast.
Wish that time could stop at yesterday.

Love you bei

my lappy sleeve finally came!
after waiting for like 17556o473 days

lets go haji on friday, shall we? =p

london was fun~
shall upload the photos on FB soon

XXX
life is unfair
but still, look on the brighter side
its hard, but it helps
=)

i realise i spend alot on shopping

everytime i come bac to sg
this is what i spent during my last weekend

shopping in FEP and Haji

cab fare to FEP - $16
black top - $38
studded slippers - $25
checkered choes - $32.90
black frame specs - $10
OPI red nail polish - $18
nail polish solvent - $19.90
customised laptop case - $64

all in half a day i've spent more than $200

not to mention i just spend another $100
shopping in melbourne and $100 on a bag from FEP

Shit. i really need to curb my spending

save up for tokyo trip!

and i've been wanting to blog abt this but

keep procrastinating

my 21st bday pressie from bei =)

i love hand made gifts
=)

A month ago
i used to be able to see/meet bei everytime aft my flight
on my off days and such
but now
i touch down not looking forward to anything
cos bei is not there to pick me up
or even to meet me the next day for a date

we dont even have time for a decent dinner
shift work and irregular work timing dont match
AT ALL

now i eat alone
sleep alone
and shop alone

i miss the old days
but this is life
the sacrifice we have to make to feed ourself and the future
as we grow older

but nevertheless
we still maanged to squeeze a little bit of time
for meaningful things like bei's birthday
and catching the latest movie in the theatres

these little bouts of time we have
are really precious now

sometimes i wish time would stop
and let me immerse in the moment before i realise that
it is already gone
and thinking abt it only makes u look back and say
"if only..."
"if only..."
"if only..."

my 21st would be coming in less than a week's time
and i'll be spending it alone at Maldives
bei is not wokring on tt day so he's gonna
spend it alone too

but im looking 4ward to this sat
cos bei's gonna have a early celebration with me
=)

isn't it great?
to have a partner whoose heart is as close to yours?